As a result of my whole childhood and into my teen years I was usually the shortest within my age group in whatever I was part of. In school, in sports and in conquests of the heart, I was usually the “short arse” and due to the fact of it I endured my fair share of abuse and poker fun at. My thoughts and opinions was only partially accepted and my contribution in practically everything ended up being regarded as much less than sufficient. I was picked on.
I battled hard to maintain some sort of level in the picking order and fought off the aggressors with humor, submission and sometimes violence to those who were closer to my stature. It was a hard road and from it I both learnt how to survive and learnt how to feel sorry for myself. It assisted in building my character with all its flaws and strengths and both helped and hindered me through many years of adulthood. As an adult I would not allow people to trample me and anyone who thought I was a pushover were in for a surprise but deep inside I always had this feeling of being sorry for myself, in other words… “Why was everybody picking on me?”
I blamed everything and everyone for my unhappiness; my work, my circumstances, my environment, my wife and even my children for my plight. I had no idea how to change it or them and so I was forever in a merry-go-round of happiness and misery. I believed I had every reason to feel sorry for myself and that it was… not my fault! About seven years ago I began a journey, I am still on that journey (and still a short arse) but I have learnt that I am the creator of my experience and that it was my focus on what was wrong with my life that caused my unhappiness.
I had a great life then but I believed it was circumstances and people outside of myself that was influencing everything that I thought was wrong with my life and so the unhappiness and the ‘lack’ I felt was my own doing and nothing more than a figment of my imagination. We influence and create our own life experience and if you believe you are being picked on then you probably will be. If you believe you are inadequate, not good enough, too big, too fat, and too small or categorize yourself into any negative slot then that will probably be true, for you. It is not the ‘truth’ but it is true for you until you decide it is no longer the case.
I was picked on because I believed I was picked on! Do you get that? And once I decided that I was the reason I was picked on then the “being picked on” part no longer had any intensity and so it was no longer in my experience. And it is the same for you; if you believe you are being picked on or if you feel sorry for yourself then you must recognize that it is you creating the life you are living. You are picking on yourself! You can certainly turn this around; all you have to do is identify these adverse emotions and change them into optimism. Each time you sense these types of emotions say to your self “i can always hope it will get better” as well as you may discover your own thoughts will probably start to take the optimistic line rather than the adverse.
Be persistent, wallowing in self pity will probably only bring about much more conditions to wallow about. You could usually hope life will get much better for you, you may always expect people will compliment you rather than criticize you and (blank) can usually wish that happiness will envelope you. Why is everyone picking on me will become a joke rather than a fact and you will begin to enjoy the life you deserve.